他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过
好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
my holiday
just a simple tale of how my holidays spent..
19 april-left kmm
26-30april.. 183 taiping ipoh kl trip
5-8 may.. kl IELTS course
10 may.. MUET retake
12-17 may.. faclilitator in kmm
19-20 may.. penang trip
21 may.. taiping trip
29may -2 june cambodia trip
5 june interview
6-8june.. penang wedding. bestman
14 june. IELTS test
18-19 june. 3in1 taiping celebration
29 june.. UKM..
and there goes another chapter of my life
19 april-left kmm
26-30april.. 183 taiping ipoh kl trip
5-8 may.. kl IELTS course
10 may.. MUET retake
12-17 may.. faclilitator in kmm
19-20 may.. penang trip
21 may.. taiping trip
29may -2 june cambodia trip
5 june interview
6-8june.. penang wedding. bestman
14 june. IELTS test
18-19 june. 3in1 taiping celebration
29 june.. UKM..
and there goes another chapter of my life
schoolmate captain ronaldo roommate bb baka tionk jo shi fu py ly tun..
i lost..
and i lost my dignity..
and i lost myself too..
i lost my confidence..
i lost everything i'd inside me..
i was smack by a huge blow..
which was a reality check to me.
that i'm just a normal person..
not anyone great..
then you stood up
to console me..
and tell me how great i'm..
the story goes on
and the life goes on..
then you came calling..
keep on shouting 183!!non stop..
everytime u saw me and those ppl together..
you will shout 183. 183..
who will ever predict at that time..
that one day u will become a member of 183
??
and indeed..
you became 183
and we called one eight three..
because of u..
then in a special afternoon..
i remember it is a monday afternoon 1pm.. as that is the only time all of us has free period.
6 of us gathered..
in the library..
and this historic moment happened..
183 was founded.. it was 14 june 2007..
time flies.. and came pesta tanglung..
i was blinded by something that blind my eyes cover my senses and numb my heart..
our friendship almost in jeopardy..
indeed.. it is in great danger of vanishing..
i kept on ignoring ur sms..
and ur presence became invisible to me..
i kept on forget u..
i didn't know i was doing that..
but truth proof that i was doing that at that time..
and u stepped forward..
in the toilet under the biology unit..
you told me.. even u think that i was blinded and forget the friendship that was built..
i was sorry..
luckily you did not did not forgive me..
and slowly..
we coloured our friendship once again..
in a mishap..
we boarded a bus later than anyone else home..
and together
we waited..
together...
we ate in the bus..
together..
we went to klcc..
together we exchanged christmas present.. excluding jacquez..
together.. we did alot of things..
eat yee mee..
played badminton..
went outing..
but ..
did u notice something..
everytime a programme was set up..
it turned out to be everyone leaving with sour face..
or a dull look...
mayb it is our fault..
mayb it is my fault too..
everytime thinking my planning was great
but never think of other's view and perception..
i am too selfish..
i am too big headed..
i'm too useless..
it is a blessing.. to have you as my roommate.. the 1st time 2 stupid baby went outing in malacca central...
the 1st time we get attacked by all chinese..
the 1st time we meet our sisters..
the 1st time we meet godfather gang
the 1st time we hear loud footsteps and knew who he is..
the 1st time we went outing
the 1st time we celebrated her bd
the 1st time we shed tears.
the 1st time we won EINSTEIN
the 1st time we say hi and bye to CHEDMED..
the 1st time we kicked football
the 1st time we kicked futsall
the 1st time we ate GREEN bean soup
the the 1st time we ate steamboat..
and lots of lots of 1st time with frank rachel lady god yn n c...
not forgetting..
our 1st operation..
kinda funny..
we never went operation in full force more than once
everytime someone was busy'
but i rmb..
the whiteboard was the best
then the mirror..
till now we were scolding those mirror robbers..haha
and the lights.. we fix it our self..
the tables..
the chairs..
our base..
our 183 base..
such a legacy..
do u still rmb?
very early on..
i was sad by love..
and u too..
2 of us went walking down the streets
in the middle of night..
u told ur stories
and i told mine..
and u took my pic in toilet too..
that time we were so close..
hope now we are also that close..
and in another case..
we were sleeping together..
5 of us...
and u and i never slept that night
we stole bbsb hp
and called many ppl...
and they really can't recognize us..
such a trick..
we had quarelled before..
the greatest was in 29 of march
u pushed me so hard
and bang the door
i cried ..
tears flow
and heart broken...
the dustbin was overturned..
debries everywhere...
we fight..
till whole block knew it..
just for our ronaldo ...
we played footsal
under the rain..
we were so cold
and afraid of getting sick
but ur words gave me courage
u said..
keep urself warm and u will not get cold..
we kicked for a long time..
then came the horn ..
so loud..
we ran..
in kmm..
we ran many times..
from pak guard..and my fello..
i still remember..
one night i was deeply depressed..
until i did not utter a word..
u left a note for me..
asking me to be strong..
thx..
we lied on the same bed.. sharing our thoughts..
bout ur heart n my heart..
ur princess n my green bean..
and u kept on laugh at me..
and i joked on you too..
you challenged me and i did the same thing to u..
i vowed to fullfill my word if she is same uni with me..
it turned out she is same with me.
how can i eat my words now?
we went to tutor together..
bus station together..
sent them home together..
but..sad case..
once .. u got into my dk.. maths.. and sit beside me
to attend class with me..
that was so fun..
so nice..
we shared sweets.
and words too..
we had gone through many things..
everytime i have nice food..
i sure give u..
share with u..
ok not everytime but almost everytime i can..
secret recipe cake.. kuih muih.. tit bits.. choc..sweets.. noodles.. chicken skin.. pasar malam food..
i shared with u..
but i knew got one thing i never get it right..
it is when i had meal with u..
i always afraid of ppl's weird eyesight..
and sit far away from u.
walk fast fast to be far apart from u..
i knew i hurt u much..
there is one time when u holding a stick of fish ball wanting to feed me..
but my fear eyesight forced u not to do that..
i'm sorry..
everytime u called me for food
i also agreed..
but turned out we quarrelled..
because of my idiot thinking..
i'm sorry..
i've never treat u welll..
even when i was granted the chance..
i ignored u
treat u like a robot
a talking machine
without feeling..
i'm sorry..
i can help but i just can't forgive myself..
now that the chance had gone..
i've no more chance..
there are no remorse in kmm..
except for what i did on you..
everything was so perfect there
that even we have to separate i'd no qualms..
183 had the best memories.. 4 bro sis had it too.. roommate and i too... and myself n flowers too.
all sweet memories to be saved inside my memory..
but not ours..
our memory are bitter.. and a scar was there..
i'd never appreciated our friendship well bcoz of my selfishness..
a cycle has concluded with qh ms n 183 birthday party.. we managed to celebrate all birthday.. except yours.. i'm sorry i didn't set it up.. but the timing was wrong. i'm sorry too.. but. how many parties ended with joy and laughter.. i guessed the only one was the one i'm not involved in setting it up...> my birthday..
what an irony...
maybe we will not meet again in future..
maybe we will eventually part further..
but history was created..
and will be sealed in our memories..
some place.. somewhere..
one day.. it will appear again..
it is just a matter of time..
i'd never regret to meet u.. but u'd regret to meet me..
good luck...
and i lost my dignity..
and i lost myself too..
i lost my confidence..
i lost everything i'd inside me..
i was smack by a huge blow..
which was a reality check to me.
that i'm just a normal person..
not anyone great..
then you stood up
to console me..
and tell me how great i'm..
the story goes on
and the life goes on..
then you came calling..
keep on shouting 183!!non stop..
everytime u saw me and those ppl together..
you will shout 183. 183..
who will ever predict at that time..
that one day u will become a member of 183
??
and indeed..
you became 183
and we called one eight three..
because of u..
then in a special afternoon..
i remember it is a monday afternoon 1pm.. as that is the only time all of us has free period.
6 of us gathered..
in the library..
and this historic moment happened..
183 was founded.. it was 14 june 2007..
time flies.. and came pesta tanglung..
i was blinded by something that blind my eyes cover my senses and numb my heart..
our friendship almost in jeopardy..
indeed.. it is in great danger of vanishing..
i kept on ignoring ur sms..
and ur presence became invisible to me..
i kept on forget u..
i didn't know i was doing that..
but truth proof that i was doing that at that time..
and u stepped forward..
in the toilet under the biology unit..
you told me.. even u think that i was blinded and forget the friendship that was built..
i was sorry..
luckily you did not did not forgive me..
and slowly..
we coloured our friendship once again..
in a mishap..
we boarded a bus later than anyone else home..
and together
we waited..
together...
we ate in the bus..
together..
we went to klcc..
together we exchanged christmas present.. excluding jacquez..
together.. we did alot of things..
eat yee mee..
played badminton..
went outing..
but ..
did u notice something..
everytime a programme was set up..
it turned out to be everyone leaving with sour face..
or a dull look...
mayb it is our fault..
mayb it is my fault too..
everytime thinking my planning was great
but never think of other's view and perception..
i am too selfish..
i am too big headed..
i'm too useless..
it is a blessing.. to have you as my roommate.. the 1st time 2 stupid baby went outing in malacca central...
the 1st time we get attacked by all chinese..
the 1st time we meet our sisters..
the 1st time we meet godfather gang
the 1st time we hear loud footsteps and knew who he is..
the 1st time we went outing
the 1st time we celebrated her bd
the 1st time we shed tears.
the 1st time we won EINSTEIN
the 1st time we say hi and bye to CHEDMED..
the 1st time we kicked football
the 1st time we kicked futsall
the 1st time we ate GREEN bean soup
the the 1st time we ate steamboat..
and lots of lots of 1st time with frank rachel lady god yn n c...
not forgetting..
our 1st operation..
kinda funny..
we never went operation in full force more than once
everytime someone was busy'
but i rmb..
the whiteboard was the best
then the mirror..
till now we were scolding those mirror robbers..haha
and the lights.. we fix it our self..
the tables..
the chairs..
our base..
our 183 base..
such a legacy..
do u still rmb?
very early on..
i was sad by love..
and u too..
2 of us went walking down the streets
in the middle of night..
u told ur stories
and i told mine..
and u took my pic in toilet too..
that time we were so close..
hope now we are also that close..
and in another case..
we were sleeping together..
5 of us...
and u and i never slept that night
we stole bbsb hp
and called many ppl...
and they really can't recognize us..
such a trick..
we had quarelled before..
the greatest was in 29 of march
u pushed me so hard
and bang the door
i cried ..
tears flow
and heart broken...
the dustbin was overturned..
debries everywhere...
we fight..
till whole block knew it..
just for our ronaldo ...
we played footsal
under the rain..
we were so cold
and afraid of getting sick
but ur words gave me courage
u said..
keep urself warm and u will not get cold..
we kicked for a long time..
then came the horn ..
so loud..
we ran..
in kmm..
we ran many times..
from pak guard..and my fello..
i still remember..
one night i was deeply depressed..
until i did not utter a word..
u left a note for me..
asking me to be strong..
thx..
we lied on the same bed.. sharing our thoughts..
bout ur heart n my heart..
ur princess n my green bean..
and u kept on laugh at me..
and i joked on you too..
you challenged me and i did the same thing to u..
i vowed to fullfill my word if she is same uni with me..
it turned out she is same with me.
how can i eat my words now?
we went to tutor together..
bus station together..
sent them home together..
but..sad case..
once .. u got into my dk.. maths.. and sit beside me
to attend class with me..
that was so fun..
so nice..
we shared sweets.
and words too..
we had gone through many things..
everytime i have nice food..
i sure give u..
share with u..
ok not everytime but almost everytime i can..
secret recipe cake.. kuih muih.. tit bits.. choc..sweets.. noodles.. chicken skin.. pasar malam food..
i shared with u..
but i knew got one thing i never get it right..
it is when i had meal with u..
i always afraid of ppl's weird eyesight..
and sit far away from u.
walk fast fast to be far apart from u..
i knew i hurt u much..
there is one time when u holding a stick of fish ball wanting to feed me..
but my fear eyesight forced u not to do that..
i'm sorry..
everytime u called me for food
i also agreed..
but turned out we quarrelled..
because of my idiot thinking..
i'm sorry..
i've never treat u welll..
even when i was granted the chance..
i ignored u
treat u like a robot
a talking machine
without feeling..
i'm sorry..
i can help but i just can't forgive myself..
now that the chance had gone..
i've no more chance..
there are no remorse in kmm..
except for what i did on you..
everything was so perfect there
that even we have to separate i'd no qualms..
183 had the best memories.. 4 bro sis had it too.. roommate and i too... and myself n flowers too.
all sweet memories to be saved inside my memory..
but not ours..
our memory are bitter.. and a scar was there..
i'd never appreciated our friendship well bcoz of my selfishness..
a cycle has concluded with qh ms n 183 birthday party.. we managed to celebrate all birthday.. except yours.. i'm sorry i didn't set it up.. but the timing was wrong. i'm sorry too.. but. how many parties ended with joy and laughter.. i guessed the only one was the one i'm not involved in setting it up...> my birthday..
what an irony...
maybe we will not meet again in future..
maybe we will eventually part further..
but history was created..
and will be sealed in our memories..
some place.. somewhere..
one day.. it will appear again..
it is just a matter of time..
i'd never regret to meet u.. but u'd regret to meet me..
good luck...
memoirs of kmm
do you still remember?
the day i stepped in to the cafe.. cafe c it was called..
a group of humans were staring at me.. with weird eyes..
as i'm a newcomer in this neighbourhood..
the flies.. so many i can't even count it.. on the food being sold..
but i still forcefully buy it. as u told me to buy the food and taste it..
i still remember .. the 1st cup of sky juice i had in cafe c..
i was so reluctant tat time. but u told me to get it. and it is free..
the water was so dirty.. but i still gulped the whole cup of it..
i still remember.. the smiles every guy gave me.. '
they lined up.. and introduced themselves and greet me..
the feeling was so warm...
do u still remember? the time we 1st went jogging together..
under the cloudy skies..
in the bizarre atmosphere..
surrounded by curious eyes..
we went for the jog.. with a friend..
and we reach the field..
that was the 1st time i stepped into the field..
being a football avid..
i stormed into the group of people playing football
and left u sitting at the steps alone with her..
and i played my 1st game of football in kmm..
the feeling was exhilarating..
in the darkness of a monday night..
i walked into the icy cold library..
with my pal from sam tet..
and i saw you..
together with 3 other people from taiping..
i broke the rule for the 1st time in kmm..
and for the very rare time in my study life..
we decided to skip those orientation talk...
and there is where our friendship began..
that very night..
we found out we were successfull in changing classes..
we jumped in joy and fell into the sea of happiness..
u were wearing shorts..
another college law broken..
but we were too happy to bother about it..
do u still remember?
the time came when SPR announced JPP election will be held..
you are the 1st one i consult
and u gave me the green light..
and u gave me the support too..
the moment of truth began to appear in my life..
in a twinkle of an eye.. i realise one of my pal was also challenging for the post..
i was exhilarated once again..
because of you..
the whole gang came to help us.
2 helpless stray cat..
being poured help unselfishly from so many people..
especially girls from AMC>.
thx alot to you once again..
and that is the time where our friendship began to bud...
and the roses have started to blossom..
our banner...
i remember.. was hung proudly...
in between the post in those lecture halls..
and the rain fall at the right moment..
forcing everyone to walk through that part..
coincidently noticed our banner..
and those red yellow posters..
were our colours throughout our life in kmm..
then came the manifesco night..
and the applause was thunderous..
the roar...
the cheer...
the support...
the acknowledgement..
everything..
was so perfect..
that our hand language..
flipping hair has become a typical sign of support..
i was how much could i win...
not even a glimpse of defeat appear in my mind...
and came the results....
I .....
the day i stepped in to the cafe.. cafe c it was called..
a group of humans were staring at me.. with weird eyes..
as i'm a newcomer in this neighbourhood..
the flies.. so many i can't even count it.. on the food being sold..
but i still forcefully buy it. as u told me to buy the food and taste it..
i still remember .. the 1st cup of sky juice i had in cafe c..
i was so reluctant tat time. but u told me to get it. and it is free..
the water was so dirty.. but i still gulped the whole cup of it..
i still remember.. the smiles every guy gave me.. '
they lined up.. and introduced themselves and greet me..
the feeling was so warm...
do u still remember? the time we 1st went jogging together..
under the cloudy skies..
in the bizarre atmosphere..
surrounded by curious eyes..
we went for the jog.. with a friend..
and we reach the field..
that was the 1st time i stepped into the field..
being a football avid..
i stormed into the group of people playing football
and left u sitting at the steps alone with her..
and i played my 1st game of football in kmm..
the feeling was exhilarating..
in the darkness of a monday night..
i walked into the icy cold library..
with my pal from sam tet..
and i saw you..
together with 3 other people from taiping..
i broke the rule for the 1st time in kmm..
and for the very rare time in my study life..
we decided to skip those orientation talk...
and there is where our friendship began..
that very night..
we found out we were successfull in changing classes..
we jumped in joy and fell into the sea of happiness..
u were wearing shorts..
another college law broken..
but we were too happy to bother about it..
do u still remember?
the time came when SPR announced JPP election will be held..
you are the 1st one i consult
and u gave me the green light..
and u gave me the support too..
the moment of truth began to appear in my life..
in a twinkle of an eye.. i realise one of my pal was also challenging for the post..
i was exhilarated once again..
because of you..
the whole gang came to help us.
2 helpless stray cat..
being poured help unselfishly from so many people..
especially girls from AMC>.
thx alot to you once again..
and that is the time where our friendship began to bud...
and the roses have started to blossom..
our banner...
i remember.. was hung proudly...
in between the post in those lecture halls..
and the rain fall at the right moment..
forcing everyone to walk through that part..
coincidently noticed our banner..
and those red yellow posters..
were our colours throughout our life in kmm..
then came the manifesco night..
and the applause was thunderous..
the roar...
the cheer...
the support...
the acknowledgement..
everything..
was so perfect..
that our hand language..
flipping hair has become a typical sign of support..
i was how much could i win...
not even a glimpse of defeat appear in my mind...
and came the results....
I .....
a new chapter
what my friend said is really true. there are some thing that u can't get rid from your life..he quoted "when u play in the beach, you grap a hand full of sand and then u let it go. you may think that u have let it go. but when u went home. you found sand on ur shorts.. sand inside ur pockets.. or even sand on your skin.. " no matter how you ought to eradicate it from your life. you will find out that it will still stick on you..
why?
because there are something that cannot be erased.. until Death found you. or you found Death..
it is feelings. humans have feelings. even animals have.. memories will fade but it will not vanish.
the more you struggle. the more pain you feel.. maybe it is time for this thing to call it a day.. for it to settle.. maybe there are benefits behind this happening.. for the bird to release itself after a long time kept inside the cage. it is time for it to be solved. finally .. the is a full stop to this neverending epic.. finally. it can be ended.. it may not be in the nicest way, yet it is not the cruelest way of all.
it is time to plod on to the next chapter of your life and close the previous chapter
why?
because there are something that cannot be erased.. until Death found you. or you found Death..
it is feelings. humans have feelings. even animals have.. memories will fade but it will not vanish.
the more you struggle. the more pain you feel.. maybe it is time for this thing to call it a day.. for it to settle.. maybe there are benefits behind this happening.. for the bird to release itself after a long time kept inside the cage. it is time for it to be solved. finally .. the is a full stop to this neverending epic.. finally. it can be ended.. it may not be in the nicest way, yet it is not the cruelest way of all.
it is time to plod on to the next chapter of your life and close the previous chapter
more than a stepping stone
kolej matrikulasi melaka
a place i hated so much
i want to stay in sam tet
to pursue my dream
and get what i want
why must i go there
i've no choice
everyone wants me to leave
i hate this place
the people are so bad
the rules so weird
the custom so bizarre
i hate it i hate it
i jus wanna finished studying
get a 4 FLAT
and leave
vowing not to look back
and bid farewell to those ppl
those friends and teachers
u are all a stepping stone
a passer by in my life
we shall not meet again
HOWEVER.
i found out i fell in love..
with this place..
as the days are numbered
the fragrance of flowers gettting tensed
the food taste out of the world
the air was so refreshing
the people were so kind n friendly
i realized then..
i can't let it go.
feelings started to took controll of me
i can't..
i found out i can't
this place embedded into my heart and soul
i can't forget it..
why
why
why...
why must i have such strong feelings for kmm
coz it formed a part of my life too
and path the way for the rest of my life.
thx
a place i hated so much
i want to stay in sam tet
to pursue my dream
and get what i want
why must i go there
i've no choice
everyone wants me to leave
i hate this place
the people are so bad
the rules so weird
the custom so bizarre
i hate it i hate it
i jus wanna finished studying
get a 4 FLAT
and leave
vowing not to look back
and bid farewell to those ppl
those friends and teachers
u are all a stepping stone
a passer by in my life
we shall not meet again
HOWEVER.
i found out i fell in love..
with this place..
as the days are numbered
the fragrance of flowers gettting tensed
the food taste out of the world
the air was so refreshing
the people were so kind n friendly
i realized then..
i can't let it go.
feelings started to took controll of me
i can't..
i found out i can't
this place embedded into my heart and soul
i can't forget it..
why
why
why...
why must i have such strong feelings for kmm
coz it formed a part of my life too
and path the way for the rest of my life.
thx
a visitor, not a passer by
stridding into another pathway of life, you came upon my life.By luck or by fate, we meet up and soon foster close relationship. From somebody with great abilities and confidence but a nobody in kmm, ur presence turned this nobody into somebody. Let it be rain or sunshine, thunder that roared throughout the night or lightning which flashed upon the dark blue sky, you are always beside me. Assiting me,who was gasping for life in this once strenuous life. sweet and sour we had tasted together, laughter and cried we experienced, pain and joy we gone through, nothing haven't stroll past our life in kmm..we meet godfather gang together.. meet 2 great creatures together. experienced the hardest time in kmm together. learned the meaning of life together. from the very day i stepped in, your invaluable help guided me. To meet new friends and cope with this new life. Once i was a butterfly, out of cocoon and fly away, forgetting the caterpillar and cocoon process which made me what i'm.. Once i hated life in kmm, the unbelieveble food, the special people and bizarre thinking inside the college, the unique rules there. I struggled to live, but your presence saved me. from getting chocked in this special place. i'm so greatful.. that you all are there. beside me whenever i'm in trouble. Your selfishless help, your intelligence, your great thinking, your toleration.. was so great.. the moment we started our first meeting.. and signed out agreement. till we meet those 7 creatures. then setback from my selfishness almost ruined our friendship. luckily. there were still gap for us to reconciled. not huge holes that are impossible to cover it up.our OPERATION. our base. our monthly celebration. our huge attack. our excitement from pak guard. our rainbow song.. our sadness together.. we shed tears together from the tear of heart and share feelings together from our past. the blood we bled from injuries. the hairstyle, the big head, the singer, the blur king. the dota king, the intelligent. the tackle.. all were so nice and invaluable...
you..
shaped my life
coloured my life
filled my life
nights of sadness are inevitable and infinite.. but you always beside me, leading me towards the days of laughter.. outing. steamboat had become common.. but everytime had a special meaning.
even the last in the icy cold of mexwell hill.. was the best.. the greatest..
never giving up to be a visitor when i merely treat you as a passer by, teaching me lessons of life, consoling me whenever i'm upset,
the device was an important communication for us. handphone is such a marvellous creation..
i'm sorry if i'd angered u
i'm sorry if my plan was not good enough
i'm sorry if i nvr did my best
i'm sorry if i treat u as a robot
i'm sorry if i nvr reply true heartedly
i'm sorry if i nvr appreciated our friendship
i'm sorry if i can't life up to ur expectation
i'm sorry if i nvr appreciate our friendship
it is easy for us to meet up. but hard for us to separate.. as 183 is a legend. 7 flowers too is a legacy..
...
u r not a passer by.. but u r a visitor.. you came into my life before.. and leaving soon.. but you are keeping a part of ur album with me.. your album of life..
i'm sure..
you will visit me again...
as i'll visit you too..
you..
shaped my life
coloured my life
filled my life
nights of sadness are inevitable and infinite.. but you always beside me, leading me towards the days of laughter.. outing. steamboat had become common.. but everytime had a special meaning.
even the last in the icy cold of mexwell hill.. was the best.. the greatest..
never giving up to be a visitor when i merely treat you as a passer by, teaching me lessons of life, consoling me whenever i'm upset,
the device was an important communication for us. handphone is such a marvellous creation..
i'm sorry if i'd angered u
i'm sorry if my plan was not good enough
i'm sorry if i nvr did my best
i'm sorry if i treat u as a robot
i'm sorry if i nvr reply true heartedly
i'm sorry if i nvr appreciated our friendship
i'm sorry if i can't life up to ur expectation
i'm sorry if i nvr appreciate our friendship
it is easy for us to meet up. but hard for us to separate.. as 183 is a legend. 7 flowers too is a legacy..
...
u r not a passer by.. but u r a visitor.. you came into my life before.. and leaving soon.. but you are keeping a part of ur album with me.. your album of life..
i'm sure..
you will visit me again...
as i'll visit you too..
finally..
after so much relentless fight.. i finally got the place i want.. university kebangsaan malaysia
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
lub dup lub dup
university application results to be out by next wednesday. heart pumping madly. my future will be unveil next week. good luck to everyone.
disgrunted
i wonder how humans can be so fickle minded..
keep on changing plans.
till the last minute..mind keep turning their direction. beware of hitting the wall
whatever.. let it be.. change change change.. never stand strong to a perception.
i hate it..HATE! hate!! HATE !!
wonder what is located in human's brains..mind your own business. i won't organize anything AGAIN..
keep on changing plans.
till the last minute..mind keep turning their direction. beware of hitting the wall
whatever.. let it be.. change change change.. never stand strong to a perception.
i hate it..HATE! hate!! HATE !!
wonder what is located in human's brains..mind your own business. i won't organize anything AGAIN..
sentimental
A morning of glaring sunlight
Shine through the windows of my room
As I breathe in the morning breeze
A glimpse of mood struck my spine
And so I sat here in front of my com
To produce another sound from my heart
Shine through the windows of my room
As I breathe in the morning breeze
A glimpse of mood struck my spine
And so I sat here in front of my com
To produce another sound from my heart
a story from cambodia
rivers channeling yellow water, cascading through the rocks in the stream.. no matter how hard it hits the rock.. the rock never seems to move . just like the life of 2000 people living in the lake.. never shattered by any means of constraints and obstacles that come upon them.. TONLE SAP lake.. a lake that is second biggest in Asia.. fresh water lake. plays such a pertinent role in supporting the life of 2000 folks who inhabit there.. the people, relentless folks.. who do not even fear of the danger and dirt lurking inside the lake water, and never even give up hope on life having to live in such torrid condition. i was amazed and flabbergasted. at the same time. fell shamed of myself. deep inside my heart. i can feel the pain n agony these people had suffered over the years. Their life is in this lake. Bathing swimming playing cooking washing.. everything. Not a single thing miss out. They are humans who live on boats floating on the lake, using the lake water as their only. I stress this word. ONLY source of water.. living from hand to mouth, they do not even have electricity supply and computer is an unknown gadget from the future to them. Group of small children, around 5-10 years, enjoying themselves inside this lake. They are playing in the dirty and high bacteria density water. Certainly.. they do not grumble bout life. Television? It has appear in their life. But it is those with batteries. Another question mark to you? Imagine how is the lifestyle of those people.. as the boat that I was sitting moves around the lake. I saw an old lady, white-haired with those clear rough lining on her head, a result of many years of hardship and tough work, washing a pot in the river. I wonder to myself. How can they survive? How can the people here be free from sickness ? the water is so dirty. Yet they use it for daily chores. If I were to get even a drop of those water on my skin, surely rash will grow immediately. It is such a heartrending scene. To see these people living in the vicious cycle of poverty. A young boy at the age of 2 or 3 perhaps, already learned to row his boat. As I saw him jumped into his boat and row it to another boat, I realized that swimming and rowing a boat is a must to survive in this rundown water society.. guilt start to take control of myself. There are people in this world who live in such conditions. What do I crave for? Being contented is what we should learn from young. And yet till today. I have failed to master this valuable skill
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