the best.. still

7 september 2008

a very memorable day for my coursemate aka good friend aka 7 flowers aka thursday(girl)..
it was her birthday and we planned a very memorable( i hope) birthday party and surprise for her.. well. the planning took not much time.. just a week or 2 i suppose.but, the effect was great.
knowing that it will be our mid sem break and all of us will be at home at that time, we planned a double party for her. 1st was in ktsn,ukm.. which was normal and brisk as it was last minute planning. but the second. was one that i was proud of.

most important.. was the guests that were invited on that day. it makes the party not only memorable for her but also meaningfull for me as i finally, after so many days, almost 2 months into uni, managed to group with my very intimate gang..
ONE EIGHT THREE ..

yean: hey, i'm sorry .. i gotta go back to um early. i can't celebrate birthday with
u.. sorry..
hc : never mind
hj : hey.. kt and chai could not come
hc : never mind
hj : haiz.. i failed to call any 183 to come again.. sorry
hc : never mind
hj : ur birthday only got me alison, ms and jo
hc : never mind


and then.. came the big day.. well.. i prefer to mention the day before the big day

that was one of my greatest day since i went into uni. the reason? simply. merely because qi hong and cher wei were here.. In ipoh !! with me.. awesome. my 183 gang. we are reunited again.. that night.. we went out for DOUBLE course of dinner. then late in the wee hours of the day.. we made a slide show. no.. something like a short movie. for our birthday girl.. slept at 4am.. wake up at 7am..

the short movie.. we creat it with tears dripping at my eyelid. as we insert those pictures we took in matrix one by one.. all the memorable events of 183 and 7 flowers flashed through my mind's eye once again..

one year.. it went by so fast. like a wind

the whole movie was about the beginning till the ending of our matrix life and our current life in uni.. 16 of us. all seperated into different uni in malaysis.. from the very north of penang till the very south of johor.. some even lost in action..

that night.. my heart pounded so softly as i flew myself back to kmm..

back to the main story.. the birthday party..
haha.. alright. it was like this. 8am. we gather in polo ground. 2 cars. 8 ppl..

one driven by the very lan yeng jacquez tan with sunglasses and spiky hair.
the other drove by the very demure alison lee with stunning look. (LOLX)

we gather at polo ground.. then i left them to find a nice location there..
and..
i drove towards the birthday girl's mansion ..
when she sat in my car..
clearly. the disappointment was there..
what only u and alison?...haha. i think that was what crossed her mind.

when we reached the park again.. here came the game..
her duty. to find the people who will celebrate her birhtday with her..

and that blur girl..

her heart almost pounded out when she meet her friends.. nope. i mean our friends one by one.. 1st josephine. ok.. she knew she will be there..
then.. qi hong.. wow. happy. but she expected him too.
then come the surprise..
bbsb!!
she was elated..
then, another big surprise..
choon yean!! she almost grinned her teeth out..
she thought she was back in um..
then ms too..
wow..
she didn't expcet these ppl to be around..

hope she was elated n blissfull...

then came the normal thing. song cake snacks..
but. the movie time..
we 3.. (183) watched the movie so touched till our tears almost fall... but they..
haha.. no word to describe them..



however... good times are always short..
time to go back.. i mean my 183 gang..
haiz.. the saddest moment is always the seperation part..

bid farewell to them... with very very heavy heart..

well.. this was no special thing as many birhtday parties amongst us were planned before this and ALMOST all were as successfull as grand as great as wonderfull as delightful as this..

but the vital point is.. our reunion.. huey chieng's birhtday reunites some of us. if not all..--> qi hong ,cher wei, hiang jin ,choon yean ,huey chieng ,josephine, mei sung.. at least we managed to gather even though we are from dirrerent uni.. oops. forget to mention our special guest ALISON too.. haha


brothers of 183... this time we may not be complete.. may not unite all of us..
but at least 3 of us meet. this was the best i could do . and i really appreciated your presence. it is not the party that matter but the reunion of us that touched me the most. i strongly believe.. one day in coming time, all of us can meet again and spend a whale of a time together..

just like what we did in our mv..( chai hong and tian tian de)

yup.. no doubt.. 183 still the best...kmm was never a regret to me.
even though i've regretted going into matrix b4 during my reign there...

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exam is next friday..i'm running out of time.. another dark moment seems looming..

who am i?

Droplets of rain fall from the darkness of the night, it is so quiet here. Pin drop silence. Even the breathing sound can be heard. It came all of a sudden. That kind of feeling once again. I hate it. But I just couldn’t control it. It started to conquer me slowly and slowly and then took full control of me once again. It comes more often recently. Can’t be prevented . neither could it be halted. So frequent it came that my fragile soul almost rupture completely from its strong fist.
Stepped into kmm yesterday, which was one of my alma mater… the feeling was nostalgic. Yup. You’re right. Everything is the same. Except the feelings and the people. Emotional…I do not know how to describe it but everything brings memories back to me and it was just so sour.. to the deepest of my heart. No one was there anymore. 1 year. It slipped past so fast.. I couldn’t imagine I’d done so much in jus one short year.
Miss hazel was right. I totally lost myself. My self-confidence. I’ve lost it. I do not know what I’m doing recently. And can’t even make simple decision or right choice. For example. I went the wrong way in lrt cause I sat the wrong direction. This was never gonna happen to me in the past. But it happened. Recently. Many things happen. The hardest of all. Yup. The DONKEY.. I’m no longer what I’m in the past. Hard I found a way to pick myself back during my matrix life after 2007 tragedy.. but who expects. So early in 2008.. I was hit hard again. Rock bottom is the best way to describe myself
Even miss hazel said I look pale . much pale. And much weaker compared to last time. In the sense of emotionally and physically.. mental strength.. zero..

This few days.. I tried hard to concentrate. To study. To memorize. To gulped up everything I’ve. But I was jus to distracted. My roommate is a great pleasure and pressure at the same time. Accommodation problems.. soul problems.. I can’t study like last time. Sitting down for hours memorizing and enjoying the jubilation after those few wonderful hours.
I can’t.. 2nd test is next Friday.. how?
Can I find myself back?
It remains a mystery…

mum.. i'm sorry

finally.. i've to tell her the truth. this few days i've been trying to cover this bad news from her.. but fire can't be wrapped in a paper. it will sooner or later be reveailed and she will know the truth soon.. what i gotta do? she has been asking me the same questions for numerous times. what did u get for your last exam? and today.. this very tiring and day full of gloomy. i've told her. that i got a D for my previous exam. her voice. and that moment. turned into another voice which i didn't hear before since i meet her 18 years ago.. i know she was totally disappointed.. high hopes had she laid on me.. and never had i upset her before.. but this time.. i knew she was totally disappointed with my performance. i knew. everyone beside me told me to put the blame on activity i joined. but, if i really regretted or vowed to turn over a new leaf, i'll never be indulging in any activities for now.but sad to say, i'm still as busy as ever.. i'm so sorry.. i felt so guilty.. this is the last thing i want to happen. to disappoint my mum. but i'd done it. i'm really tired. MERIT POINTS?!! i wanna give up. i couldn't affort. i'm not superman. nor iron man.. i'm just a normal man. i'm xian ren... not chao ren.. being sick for 2 days, plus lack of time to study and numerous activities and responsibilites yet to come for this week.. i'm gonna be dead soon.. how i wish i can be like my coursemate.. staying inside my room studying.. enjoying and relaxing myself.. i felt really tired.. i wanna rest. but i do not have the time. my progress in study is slow. i'm gonna fail the second module if i continue like this.. i'm sorry mum.. i disappoint you...

heart breaks when your hope fades.. when you made someone drop a tear, you're slicing your heart out from you..

i'm sorry.. mum.

i'm fine

YONG BU YAN BAI!!! i'm fine.. thx to a great friend