as i gaze through the pitch black skyline of kuala lumpur, i can feel somehing is different. yup. indeed. staying in a new place with numerous characters of housemates is indeed something i'd never experienced before. as soon as i first stepped into my new house, 'vistana' nothing except a full inch of dust appear in my eyes. sorrow struck my spine and fear took full controll of me when i 1st caught the sight of my "new" home.. well.. then come the war.

war against the dust and dirt. we clean and clean and clean pack and pack and pack.. 48 hours.. it took us almost a full 48 hours, 7 strength of weak and weary soul fresh from holidays to just clean this small and miserable house. well. it turned out to be something fruitful..

things went as i planned. washing machine, fridge, wireless.. everything was set up and done as soon as we glide through the 4th day of life in vistana. new fridge new washing machine. wow. indeed an incredible experience..

then, summer always does not last long. suddenly, 7.2 magnitude large earthquake rocked vistana, making 7 of us scrambling madly for breath and life. losing hope and options, we do everything we can but to no avail. hoping against hope, everyone was trying badly to curb the catastrophe. unexpected one.. nope. i think it is expected.. as the cool and suave dark guy just stood aside and watch this scenario like watching a movie in IMAX..

the earthquake subsequently subside and soon things change. skies start to clear and sunlight is shining again.. in the darknesss of KL nightline, the gimmer of KLCC can be seen, shining through the darkness of eerieness. proving she is not fear of anything surounding her. not even fear. the fear of loneliness.

life. indeed is a roller coaster ride, a ride never ends.. till you breathe your last. the choice is in your hands. you had made yours. and regret is not a way to torture yourself. since you'd chosen the road not taken, be strong and bear through all obstacles that stumbles upon you. deep inside yourself.. you'd not changed at all. you are still the same old jacquez. as strong as you might see yourself. find back your true self. your personality.. everyone has high hopes on you. and you know who you are.. nevery say die and never allow defeat to take advantage of your soul..

it is a path of life. this is your path of life.. your destiny. yourself. maybe you are far apart from what you want and everything that you think may bring happiness to you, but there is always a silver lining in the clouds. rainy days will pass soon and blazing sun is coming to burn your soul.

prevail my dear friend.. you're who you are. there is always a saying..


yong bu yan bai. .