lost in a battle

I’ve tried to keep my feelings but I really can’t.
Twice I tried to keep it to myself, not wanting to affect others feelings
But sorry.
I can’t
I’ve to lash it out somewhere..
I tried to go to bed
To sleep
To forget this problem
But I can’t
And here I was
Awake again
Shedding tears again
2nd time of the night
I do not know why
But really quite emo
Tonight
Tried to contain myself
Failed again
Just like what I did in my exam
Tension arised.
I know
Everyone is feeling the same
I just lack of that important thing
The thing that can build my confidence n optimistic.
Kept on thinkin of the negative part.
Really.
It caught me.
Stress. Here u are
U won
I admit.
U WON!!
I lost.
I am succumbed to stress
Every night I slept
With guilty of not finishing my studies
But I;m exhausted. I’m tired.
I cant. The same old problem arised.
My roommate is too great. He is giving me pressure . indeed
I kno he didn’t mean it. and I tried to ignore it..
But I FAILED.
I know many of u will falter also if u r in the same situation.
Every night.. if u sleep much earlier than him.. and every day spent less time studying than him,..
Will u think what u studied is enough?
Will u think what u covered is complete?
Will u think u r ready for exam?
I’ve been trying.
But really every tired. Gonna give up soon..
Every night still awake by 2or even 3am..
But there r ppl sleeping late at 4 or 5am..
Will u think u r well enough>
It is not the matter of comparing with other ppl
Is the matter of whether u can go through yourself of not feeling guilty.
Of feeling ready even thou u study much less.
I don’t know.
Sorry.
My mood is bad,,
Lash it out on u..
Sorry sorry..
My fault.
Sigh..
academic pressure surely gain the edge over me now..
lost in a great battle..
less than 4 weeks
4 modules.
4 once n 4 all
some more so many haiz.. dunno how to say..
arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
calm down..... fu fu fu fu...
i'm fine.